Topic: 15 seconds of RAGE

Yeah, I get that a lot. Just rage from nowhere. Sometimes it's like that's the only emotion that can burn through.

I call it the Hulk mode. The whole day or the week or the month I would behave like a grumpy cat, no emotions/expressions whatsoever. But sometimes when someone close to me (friend or family) becomes desperate to know "why I am always coldhearted?", I become helpless.

I find it very astonishing when people express themselves with so much ease. It's not that I don't feel emotions, it's that I don't care whether I express them or not.

My 4 year long relationship with my girlfriend ended due the same reason. At that time I didn't know about Alexithymia. Now after one year, when I do know, I feel like contacting her again and tell her all about my situation. But again, I don't know how. It was me, who broke up with her. I kept on asking myself whether I love her or not, there was no answer. I don't know what is this emotion or at least how to express it. It is during these times I feel this rage for about 10-15 seconds. I would close my eyes and tightly close my fists or hold something and I would only imagine destroying things around just like the Hulk. The problem is I feel this rage sometimes when I am driving alone in the car, and I would just start driving rashly just for 10-15 seconds.

Does anyone else feel this rage of frustration rising due to the inability to describe your emotion?

Is it due to frustration of not being able to express or just random? For me it's due to this frustration only.

I wouldn't call it rage, but if I'm trying to express my feelings in a situation that I think calls for it, and I can't, I do get pretty frustrated. If I'm trying to express my feelings in general and don't think it's really important that I do so, but I still can't express 'em, I just get a little peeved. Either way, the feelings of irritation don't last very long and I go back to not caring and not caring that I don't care a few minutes later, lol.

I totally experienced the same thing. My other half will call me "You and your grumpy face, look at the mirror". I get angry with no reason at random times, which I don't know why either.

Yeah I have this problem. My wife says I am grumpy, but I am not sure if this is how I feel. All I know is that sometimes I just loose it. Rage builds up inside of me and explodes and as quick as it came its gone. I feel like I want to destroy everything and that if I do something like that I would be free. Then at least I would feel something.

I can't talk about things that are bothering me. Thank goodness my husband understands that.
Maybe thats why I have very little friends. I scored high.
This is very interesting.
I call it bitch mode .. LOL I get very frustrated … and the anger just mounts … till it erupts
Maybe that I am going through the changes is not helping things ….

You think its just rage? I think (especially reading) there's this feeling like its adding in my stomach. I call it "nervousness" but to tell you the truth, I dont even know if its nervousness. That feeling would just grow and I end up laughing at the story I'm reading (ironically, its always on the action, tragedy, death etc part) but its really on the inside, not the inside

Or maybe all of us are just feeling "mood swings"?

Oops I had a typo on the last part after the question, sorry

Just rage from nowhere. Sometimes it's like that's the only emotion that can burn through. I know this rage thing, have it also. It comes from helplessness, from not knowing what to do, from desperation...

from biological point of view fear and anger/rage are the strongest feeling "available" for us humans ... that's maybe why...

on the inside,

maybe its "from the inside"...?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLHpvjrFpe0


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Good Morning, btw!!
still alive, yet another day to come... (woken up without wanting ;-))

....and besides... 1 am "only a crack in this castle of glass":

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ScNNfyq3d_w

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In my family it is almost taboo to show any point of breaking, not that it's ever been stated it just, doesn't happen..
So I guess, do to that I tried to find other ways of dispelling, anxiety or built up frustration.
I don't explode.
Instead I implode.
And just become very quiet, slow all my motions, watch my thoughts.
Until I've worked it out of my system

In my family it is almost taboo to show any point of breaking, not that it's ever been stated it just, doesn't happen..
So I guess, do to that I tried to find other ways of dispelling, anxiety or built up frustration.
I don't explode.
Instead I implode.
And just become very quiet, slow all my motions, watch my thoughts.
Until I've worked it out of my system

it used to be that way when I was younger and still living at my parants, they did not want to hear about things not going well...

Respect for elders and the family here are a high regard so I have to stop myself from yelling back at them 'cause they'll instantly think I'm 'talking back'

Respect for elders and the family here are a high regard so I have to stop myself from yelling back at them 'cause they'll instantly think I'm 'talking back'

this is.... well ... a bad "disbelief"... just because parents are older they are "wiser" and so on... quite the contrary...

it would be a better version of the world, if it were ruled by KIDS! imho...

my personal illness makes me be like a child in many ways... yes...

this is very hard in normal situations of life... yet it has "something" ... (like Bushido would put it)

so -what's that thing?! you might ask...

it is............. innocence lost!

I'm gonna have a smoke, see you later - alligator